Being positive. Being optimistic. Being full of joy. It can be difficult at times, but it doesn’t mean that life is always going to go the way we had hoped, but we can still carry a positive perspective on things. For me, life experiences have given me a lot of eyes wide open moments, and with that I have been able to gain more and more appreciation for life in general. It can be easy to look at our past and carry a lot of regret with those moments but the truth is, without those moments of weakness we wouldn’t have been able to get to where we are today. Recovery has and continues to teach me so much, and as I continue to work through it I am reminded of the progress that I’ve made and the positive impact it continues to make in my life. Choosing to take on addiction day in and day out is something that fills the enthusiasm cup, and I always remind myself that choosing sobriety each day is always going to carry with it that sense of enthusiasm, and it is something that I make sure to mirror in my day to day life. It wasn’t always this way. As someone who made it a point to always carry a victim card around, the last thing I wanted to do was be enthusiastic about anything. It was always poor me, look at me and what are you going to do for me to fix it. It’s amazing once we start to put in the work and make our very own progress how our drastically our mindset can change.
It’s not just recovery that started this shift. Choosing to surrender my life to Jesus Christ has brought with it an enthusiasm that I could never put into words. My faith continues to be my foundation. There is a common expression and one that it heard in plenty of worship songs and that it “the Rock on which I stand” which I think about often, and I am constantly reminded of how true it is. When I am strong in my faith that firm foundation is obvious, and when I find myself wandering off of that path, the sinking sand makes itself known. Sharing my enthusiasm about both my faith as well as my recovery wasn’t easy at first because of the stigmas that both things carry with them. Eventually I remembered that it’s not about anyone else. It’s about my commitment to Jesus, as well as my commitment to my recovery and that’s what my focus has become, and that’s where my focus will remain.
God bless,
Brian 👐🏻